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Feb. 9th, 2011 | 09:31 pm

Media: Fic
Title: Mr. Spectacular
Artist: heartsasmagnets 
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers (if any): Yes, through 2x12
Warnings (if any): None
Word Count: 525
Summary: Scene expansion of the 2nd coffee shop scene in 'Silly Love Songs' - Blaine's POV
Notes: I really needed to suss out what was going on inside Blaine's head during this scene.

 

“Let me be really clear about something. I really, really care about you.”

He only realizes the gravity of the sentiment as the words slip from his mouth. It’s entirely true, not simply a lie to placate Kurt.  Lying requires premeditation. He’s speaking from his heart, not his head.

He really does care about Kurt, but it’s not something he’s actively thought about until this moment. The bond between them had formed so naturally that thinking (or more accurately, over-thinking) hadn’t even been a factor in their relationship. He and Kurt simply work. They have similar pasts, share the same love for silly but somehow important things - like Vogue covers & singing - and they go to the same school.  That’s as far as he’s gotten – which actually is strange considering that he’s well known for his over-thinking. Just ask Wes or David; though honestly, the whole Jeremiah debacle should be all the proof anyone needs.

He’s been such an idiot, wasting all this time chasing after some other guy, when he's had Kurt right in front of him the whole time. Kurt - who makes him laugh on a minute to minute basis. Kurt - who's challenged him and the rest of The Warblers not to rely on their reputation to carry them through. Kurt - who is the last person he wants to talk to every night and the first person he wants to see every morning.

How could he possibly have been so clueless? Not just to Kurt's feelings, but to his own. Its then that fear strikes his heart.

“But as you and twenty mortified shoppers saw, I'm not very good at romance. I don't wanna screw this up."

God, fucking up his relationship with Kurt is the last thing he wants – ever. Now that he's had a moment to think about it, there's no relationship in his life that he'd fight harder for than this one. Kurt has quickly become his confidant, encourager and best friend and that's not something he's just willing to give up on. It's also something he doesn't want to break. They have a good thing going.

Making the leap from just friends to boyfriends is a dangerous move - and something he doesn't, honestly, know the first thing about. He's never been someone's boyfriend and Kurt deserves a guy who knows all the little tricks to being someone's someone. He needs Mr. Spectacular, a guy who can love him the way he deserves to be loved.

Blaine is oblivious, overly emotional and inexperienced. None of which are adjectives that describe a 'spectacular' boyfriend.

He really hates that he's suddenly realized his feelings for Kurt, because he's not giving up this friendship. But now he's going to have to live each day laughing at Kurt's jokes and thumbing through the latest issue of Vogue together and falling asleep every night texting him without feeling any more than he should.  Because he's not good enough, not ready to be with Kurt.

Maybe someday he'll become the spectacular man Kurt's been waiting for all these years. Unfortunately for him, that day is not today.


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dr_crgirl

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from: dr_crgirl
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:42 am (UTC)
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*sigh* Oh Blaine, why must you have layers, good awesome delicious layers that make the storyline amazing.

Hearts, why must you write so wonderfully of the lost 16 year old boy that is Blaine, making me sigh and swoon. Awesome writing, please write more!

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Beth Rakel

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from: AdamPascalFan
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:51 am (UTC)
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Oh Blaine...I just want to huggle you. Huggle you sooo hard. and then huggle you some more.

And Blaine if you want some tips of moving from best friend to boyfriend...all the teen movies I've seen suggest formal wear and possibly humilating public performances are in order. Just throwing it out there for you.

(yeah I'm sane.)

This story was just so huggle-worthy. I loved it.

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dusmarais

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from: dusmarais
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 01:19 am (UTC)
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*stares at this dreamily and hones in on the last two lines*

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\o/

from: mcgoogley_pants
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 01:49 am (UTC)
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is it embarrassing that i quite literally screamed when i saw that you posted? maybe a little BUT WHO CARES? you posted! ♥ just thought i'd say that before i read it. C: brb.

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 01:50 am (UTC)
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No. Actually it's flattering! :) I hope you like it.

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Some Foolish Carpenter

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from: obviouslytomark
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 02:12 am (UTC)
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This is exactly the kind of fic I've been waiting for. Thank you for this.
Such an emotional/pivotal scene like this deserves to be elaborated on!

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tuckatangent

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from: tuckatangent
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 02:19 am (UTC)
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*sigh* Oh, Blaine, you are good enough for Kurt. Right now.

Wonderful peek into Blaine's head.

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 03:06 am (UTC)
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Pretty much. Which is both amusing and sad. But perhaps they could take it slow and start with hand holding and a chaste kiss. It would probably make Blaine feel better.

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maplelump

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from: maplelump
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 03:56 am (UTC)
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/laughs
boys are stupid. :3

Great fic!! :D

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Maii

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from: maiqu
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 04:03 am (UTC)
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Awww Blaine poor bb!!

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selaneen

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from: selaneen
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 05:05 am (UTC)
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Oh Blaine - you were doing so well and then you just go all 'I'm not good enough' and i want to shake you again. You don't have to be perfect bb....leave that to your fic writer! <3

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samwise gamgee.

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from: colfer
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 09:00 am (UTC)
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Like I told you earlier, I think this is completely plausible and actually quite likely. WE ARE BOTH PSYCHIC, K?

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:39 pm (UTC)
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WE ARE. FOR SURE. ♥

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:44 pm (UTC)
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Thank you! I identify with Blaine a crazy amount, so it's super easy for me to get into his brain and think what he's thinking. :)

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lucie caboosie

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from: whenidance
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:32 pm (UTC)
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that day is not today.

♥ this was beautiful!.

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 12:48 pm (UTC)
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Thank you! ♥

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Library Alterna-Chick ;)

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from: jedishadowolf
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 01:08 pm (UTC)
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*applause* Marvelous, I really like seeing what Blaine's thinking here and how he really feels about Kurt. :)

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Emilie

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from: poire_gourmande
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 05:51 pm (UTC)
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"But Blaine, I don't want Mr. Spectacular. I want Mr. Anderson. He's the only one for me, and I don't care if he's oblivious, overly emotional and inexperienced, because I am too."


You write so well that it really felt like listening to Blaine, so I couldn't help but answer. :P

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heartsasmagnets

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from: heartsasmagnets
date: Feb. 10th, 2011 08:43 pm (UTC)
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That's what I was aiming for, so I'm glad it worked out!

The bit about making it feel like you're listening to Blaine, not you responding to me as Kurt - though I totally get that. I had to physically force myself not to write Kurt's rebuttal and them making up and being together. I always want a happy ending. :\

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